It’s okay, we’re normal.
By Jermaine Chloé B. Yalung
I’ve known him for quite some time.
It eats away at me inside.
I can’t hide anymore,
The feelings deep inside me.
I feel like a monster.
Which is still incomplete.
I’m never really me.
I will never be happy.
I have to let him out.
I want to scream and scream.
I’m sick of pretending.
“Hey mom, I’m gay.
And it feels so good to say it.
“It’s okay,” she said, and a weight heaved off my chest.
The feeling of depression, of suppression, it fades away,
“Hey daddy, I’m gay.”
He is shocked and turns away.
I wonder what’s going through his mind.
Oh, I’m so scared.
He says, “I love you and that will never change, it’s okay.”
Wow, I have never felt so happy.
My family supports me and I finally stopped hiding.
It’s all I ever wanted.
To finish! I have and nothing is more important.
I feel normal.
I’m gay, and it feels good to say that.
Everyone around who’s like me should know it’s okay.
And those who really love you will always support you.
You are important.
And don’t let anyone tell you otherwise.
We all deserve to be happy,
And I shouldn’t have to tell you twice.
Its good. We are normal.
In recognition of Pride Month, a time to celebrate inclusion and diversity, while recognizing the need to continue to advocate for equal rights and opportunities for all, Marianas Variety has partnered with the Northern Marianas Humanities Council to celebrate diversity in our community. Submissions are from the Humanities Councils’ Pride Talks writing competition. The Council is happy to work with Marianas Variety to share and publish the winning submissions every Wednesday in June. All winning works will also be on display at the NMI Museum and featured at various pride events throughout the month. For more information on how you can join the Council to celebrate Pride this year, check out nmhcouncil.org or follow the Council on Facebook or Instagram (@ 670humanities).
NMHC Pride Talks was made possible in part by a large grant from the National Endowment for the Humanities: Democracy Demands Wisdom. The opinions, findings, conclusions or recommendations expressed in this article do not necessarily represent those of the National Endowment for the Humanities.